kate hati

Pernahkah hati anda berkata-kata... dan pernahkah anda mendengar kata-kata hati anda...
adekah anda adalah diri anda... roh anda ialah diri anda badan anda dan anggota-anggota dalam badan anda bukan milik anda... semue itu hanyalah pinjaman semate-mate...
why i start the story mory with sumethin so ilmiah, becoz tat wat i've been thought all these years, if people ask who made u... i said me, myself n i who made me today... but with help and advise by my family member...
i still remember when i was 7, i've got bullied by another student and i nag to my dad, n he said wat u wan me to do... pukul dak tu balik ker... u should figure it out how to not getting bully... and mom said always look into ur heart coz it knew before we even know... wondering wat mama said right
since then i always search the answers into my heart, and becoz dad said i'm too spoil he able to send me to any camping event made by the school... so i start camping at age 10, i even climbed bukit bendere, gunung korbu, gue tempurung and even jungle near the school... every event got motivation section and one time this motivator said... kalaw awak tak percaye kan sesape dalam dunie nie... awak mesti percaye kan diri awak... dan kalaw awak hendak teman mengadu, mengadulah kepada diri awak... carilah jawapan bersame2 diri awak (he mean u talk to u urself using the mirror) tetapi awak kne berhati2 kerana kadang2 jawapan yang diberi boleh di pengaruhi oleh hasutan syaitan... jadi sembahyanglah untuk mendapatkan jawapan yang lebih afdal...
okie... stop with all introduction now lets getting the story... saye da amalkan bende nie lepaz jer dari camp tu sbb angah da daftar masuk askar, along baru jer kawen, mama bz, abah asyik outstation jer n abin hilang 2 bulan... so i start to trust my heart n soul and ever since i always get hint, once hati terdetik bende yg di detikkan pasti berlaku, such as basikal rosak so i already prepare tools in my bag, tayar motor pecah, i rush to go to poli and when i reached poli mmg tayar pecah pon, nekochan died i can see it comin the exact night before the day he died... my heart told me so and banyak laie perkare2 laen... and also sumethin tat happen to me recently,hmm my fren pokcik said ALLAH give HUMAN and SITUATION to give us hint wat will happen in our live... and i take with my all open heart on things tat happen to me coz the hint tat HE gave to me so many and quite sumetime now... i donno weather i should prevent it to happen or let it happen... tat wat i felt in last 4 month.
So percayelah kepade hati dan diri anda, don't see but look into wat happen everyday in ur life, coz everything tat happen for a reason and it always for a good reason... look into ur heart n ur find the answers for ur problems....

Sarahhhh

ermmm...
sarah story again...
well she in the competition... well i mean if she want to compete then she need
to work her ass much harder... well like me i also need to work extra hard...
i also wanna break through...
for her this is sumethin tat hard
for me i'm facing the hardest moment too...
she will have her final predict tomorrow...
so do i...
wow we do have that corelation between us...
myb if i do receive good news... then...
she will be receive it too...
donno... just gonna wait n see tomorrow...
right now what both of us have in common...
is chayok2
for our future... let's go

i wonder!!!

why always like dis... why when i'm at the end there must be sumething
tat play with my heart n mind... aku da jadi gler... keje yg sikit... nmpk banyak
something tat easy to complish but hard to finish... why... why at dis time
arrgghhh!!! go away all those noncent... gooo away all of those crap... i need to focus
it easy to do... just let everything gooo...
do not ignore them...
i can do it..
ermmm i want to let it go but my heart hurt... neomu aaaaa~apa.. nega aaaa~apa
yeah it does hurt... i felt my heart has hole in it... i want to breath but so hard to do so
why... i always think sumething i shouldn't...
AAAIIIIIIIIIIDDDDDDDDDAAAAAA!!!! let go nowwwww~
i will try to keep myself together...
keep it together... i can finish dis... just around da corner...
my job it already 90% why hard for me to write the final article...
arrggghh!!!... Nauzubbillah... Astafirruallah...
take a deep breath this 25 page is nothing Aida...

Common!!! LET"S GOOO!!!

Mimpi yg Real

Pg tadi aku bgn 9.30... for toilet... ermm nature call... aku bukak mate and feel so confuse... aku kne fikir kat mane aku nie... sebab tadi rasenyer kat petronas... pastu aku fikir balik... erk ader jumpe angah ke semalam... bengong jap... owh kt UTM... aper giler aku nie... aku pun terus kan hajat aku tadi... pastu masuk bilik sambung tdo... n then bagun balik lam kul 11.45... tangan aku masih ley rase macam lepas di pegang... confuse... adekah mase mimpi tadi aku pegang lengan aku lagi... cter mimpi nie macam nie sebenarnyer... in some place tak tahu r di mane... orang2 die aku tak kenal but two person angah aku n kawan aku sowang lagi... lam mimpi nie kononnyer aku da ader bf but i've got best fren tat boy n dier ader kedai makan... ye... ye... ye... mimpi tu kat kedai makan... n dekat kedai makan tu ader satu jambatan... see i can still remember everything... so on tat day aku lepak kt kedai kawan baek aku n suddenly lelaki yg kononyer bf aku nie datang ngamok2... so dier tunjuk satu kipas tangan biru kt aku... aku rase dier beli r tu sebab die ngamok... pastu aku cakap... owh aritu tgl kat kedai... ape name kawan baek aku tu erk... ermmm aku ader sebut lam mimpi tu... n bf aku ngamok2 kate aku da due kan dier r aper r... n merajuk... so myb sebab aku ske kt bf aku kot... aku pun g r pujuk... tahan dier dari pergi... so situ r aku ingat ader jambatan... so lam mimpi tu bf aku tu pegang lengan aku ngan agak2 kuat for me to explain... tu yg aku still rase smpai skang... ini malu sikit r nk cter pipi aku pun rase gak sbb alm mimpi tu bf aku pelok haku... aper kes... pastu dier gelak... then aku tolak dier... n then da baek da... so bf aku blah... aku still remain kat kedai makan lepak ngan angah... n soal yg aku tanyer angah... ialah aku ske due2 best fren n my bf... angah ske mane... n angah jawab due... mane2 pun tak pe... pas balik dari kedai makan tu aku n kawan aku naik kete tak tawu nk g mane tapi lalu highway... myb kawasan tu dekat ngan RnR sebab ader petronas... dua bas express accident terbakar n meletup... kat tengah2 jalan raye... so sampai di akwasan berkenaan polis suwuh dok lepak dulu kt petronas sebab jalan tak clear lagi... n time tu hari hujan renyai2... n then kteorang kuar dari petronas... then i'm blank.... hah! time nie mst da tdo mati kan... da tak mimpi... lame lepas tu baru aku bangun n then jam kul 9.30 pagi... isk isk isk... dasat r cter nie kan... yg haku ingat malam sebelum aku tdo tu dok sibuk wat PSM sampai kul 4 pagi... mane datangnyer influent mimpi2 nie... yg bab pulis tu myb r time g makan semalam jmp abg pulis... selain tu... n yg paling dasat aku ley rase di pegang... ermmm nie r cter nyer... ape yg sinonimnyer entah r... fikir fikirkan selamat beramal